duminică, 11 ianuarie 2009

the unnamed feeling

..stau si ma gandesc aiurea..ma gandesc la ea (nu la ea, la cealalta ea..Raz stie), ma gandesc la cacatul ala de sesiune care se apropie, stau si ma gandesc cat de bine era acum acasa, in Brasov, la o bere pe Republicii..si stau asa aiurea si simt cum incet incet mi se face o sila de nedescris..mi-e sila de bucuresti mi-e sila de bucuresteni...
this fucking place ruined the love of my life, it took the best part of me, it took the sanity i never fucking had, and i hate it, i hate every bit of it!!
yes, i am a bitter man, and no, i don't give a fuck about 90% of the world around me, maybe this is my punishment, but i can't stop asking myself, do i really diserve it? i'm trying to get my life back on it's feet, but it seems like every fucking thing is against me. i'm swimming against the stream...and i can hear that scream in my mind, that desperate yell for help, but there's no one who can fucking hear me...and still..i regret nothing...i'm not going out, i'm not going to loose this game, as long as i have this unnamed feeling(yeah, i know, it's a song from Metallica, fuck off!) inside of me..i can't describe it, it's a red light in the dark that blindly pushes me forward, it's a mixture of hate, anger, despair, sadnmess, madness...and there's this cute blonde girl that i have a crush on, she drives me crazy, and she makes me crave for her more every single day...
bottom line: there's something inside me that wants out, it's a new side of me, and i'm not sure i should let it out or not...

Un comentariu:

Dissolved Girl spunea...

is it called growing up? evolving? or is it just a pure state of psychosis?*confuzzled*